i've been back 5 days, and it already feels like a month.
i blink and a whole Universe opens up.
i blink again, and it's gone.
i've been sleeping 3-4 hours a night.
things at the Center are familiar and unfamiliar.
it's cold.
we have our big fundraiser on Saturday.
i'm emotional.
and lonely.
and devastated.
and okay.
then, not okay.
sounds like grief, doesn't it?
only...
i don't even know what i'm grieving.
i just know it's deep.
and heartbreaking.
and will eventually unfold in bits.
and one day, blindside me.
i feel desperate for a Witness.
there is none.
i'll just have to be my own.
who else knows what this feels like?
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2 comments:
you do have witnesses, muki...
There are many people who feel like this every second of every day. But, you will one day lose this feeling and feel connected with others. All you need to do is wait :)
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