choice

the Universe is teaching me about choice.

i am surrounded by delicious choices.

in the past, choice seemed easier.
kasi, it was between something kinda horrendous and barely tolerable.

easy, right?
barely tolerable.

now, the choices that i am faced with are not so black and white.
they are complex, round, equal parts joy and pain.
and really delicious.

what do i REALLY want to do?
is this how i want to spend my time?
is this what i want to be doing?
is this who i want to be doing it with?

these are the questions i swirl around in my head.
i cannot answer these questions when i am swept away by my emotions.
need a degree of stillness and calm to be able to consider these important questions.

i don't know, until i know.
until i know, i'll stay this course.
no wrong answer here, Muki.

will keep asking the questions...
and live the answers.

patience, darling Self.
kaya mo ito.