roused from sleep

who is pulling my energy?
roused from sleep again.
it's been like this like for the last 8 days or so.
not every night, but maybe 5 of 8.
2:30ish, i wake up because i feel someone calling my name.
is it you?
what is it that you want?
it's more than missing me.
what is it?
it's someone(s) in the states.
i've texted the usual suspects and they say 'nopes' or 'just a little.'
this feels bigger.

i feel like that part in clash of the titans when andromeda's astral body gets up every night and goes into that gilded cage thingy of that horrible vulture and is flown to calibos every night.

i'm tired, friend.

i wish i knew who you are.
and i wish you would contact me directly so that we could talk.
and we could lay to rest whatever it is...