wrenched

i’m listening to this playlist i made called wrench.
many of these songs are lifted.

behold the magic of music!
our whole story is in this playlist.

i really should start charging you rent (again).
something in me still needs this pain.


the first time i saw you, i loved you.
when i hurt you, i wanted to give birth to you, give birth to you.
i made love to you.
i made love to you.
the great Goddess had us blessed.
the last time i saw you, i fought with you; i fought with you.
i didn’t mean to.
i didn’t mean to.
the next time you’ll see me, let me say sorry.
the next time i see you, i love you.
i’ll be sweet to you.
i’ll take you to my healing room.
o, we both know how loneliness goes.
everytime i see you, i want you.
i want you.
the more i do, you hate me, too.
but the great Goddess has us blessed.



you’re so far away and what can i say.
‘cause i can’t be the one you wanted me to be.
so tell me how does you feel?
it’s so confusing.
so what are we saying?
our Eden’s a failure?
a made up story to fit a picture perfect world?
and we are made for each other is forever over now.
i hope there’s forgiveness in the distance between us.
can we make what lies ahead of us a better place to be?



have you seen?
have not, will travel.
have i missed the big reveal?
do my eyes, do my eyes seem empty?
i’ve forgotten how this feels.
i’ve been high.
i’ve climbed so high.
but now sometimes it washes over me.
have you been?
have done, will travel.
i fell down on my knees.
was i wrong?
i don’t know; don’t answer.
i just needed to believe.
so i dive into a pool so cool and deep,
that if i sink, i sink
and when i swim, i fly so high.
what i want, what i want is
just to live my life on high.
and i know
i know you want the same.
i can see it in your eyes.



all your ways and all your thunder,
got me in a haze, running for cover.
where we gonna go from here?
where we gonna go from here?
700 places
700 faces
in fact, your eyes look like my mother’s.
when we talk, you’re like my brother.
where we gonna go from here?
where we gonna go from here?
it’s bigger than the ocean, bigger than my design.
all your ways and all your thunder,
got me in a haze, running for thunder.
now, i’ve waited, and i’ll wait some more.
won’t see me knocking on another door.
but, all this is crazy and amazing.
‘cause only one half of us that i’ve saving.
so, i’m praying just to let it go.
watch from a distance just to see you glow.
700 places
700 faces



am i faithful?
am i strong?
am i good enough to belong?
your vision of romance is cruel.
all your expectations bury me.
don’t worry.
you will find the answers if you let it go.
give your time some time to falter.
don’t forego knowing that you are loved no matter what.
everything will come around in time.
i own my insecurities, try to own my destiny.
i can make it, break it if i choose.
you take my words and twist them round.
‘til i’m the one who brings you down
make me feel like i’m the one to blame for all this.
you need everybody with you on your side
know that i am here for you
but i hope in time
you’ll find yourself alright alone
you’ll find yourself with open arms
you’ll find yourself
you’ll find yourself
in time
a riot in my heart decides
to keep me open and alive,
i have to take myself away from you.
‘cause i can’t compete
i can’t deny
there’s nothing that i didn’t try.
how did i go so wrong in loving you?



it could all be so simple.
but you’d rather make it hard.
loving you is like a battle
and we both end up with scars
tell me who i have to be
to get some reciprocity
see, no one loves you more than me
and no one ever will.
is this just a silly game?
that forces you to act this way
forces you to scream my name
then pretend that you can’t stay
i keep letting you back in
how can i explain myself
as painful as this thing has been
i just can’t be with no one else
see i know what we’ve got to do
you let go
and i’ll let go too
‘cause no one’s hurt me more than you
and no one ever will
no matter how i think we grow
you always seem to let me know: it ain’t working.
it ain’t working.
and when i try to walk away, you’d hurt yourself to make me stay.
this is crazy.
this is crazy.
this is crazy.
care for me, care for me
you’d say you’d care for me
there for me, there for me
you said you’d be there for me
cry for me, cry for me
you said you’d die for me
give to me, give to me
why won’t you live for me?
where were you when i needed you?



forgive.
sounds good.
forget.
i’m not sure i could.
they say time heals everything.
i’m still waiting.
i’m thru with doubt
there’s nothing left for me to figure out
i’ve paid a price
and i’ll keep paying
i’m not ready to make nice
i’m not ready to back down
i’m still mad as hell and i don’t have time to go round and round and round
it’s too late to make it right
prolly wouldn’t if i could
‘cause i’m mad as hell to do what it is you think i should
i know you’ve said
can’t you just get over it?
it turned my whole world around
and i kinda like it.



if i fall along the way, pick me up and dust me off
and if i get too tired to make, be my breath so i can walk
if i need some other love then, give me more than i can stand
and when my smile gets old and faded, wait around; i’ll smile again.
shouldn’t be so complicated
just hold me and then
just hold me again
can you help me?
i’m bent.
i’m so scared that i’ll never get put back together
keep breakin’ me in
and this is how we will end
whether you and me bend
and if i couldn’t sleep, could you sleep?
could you paint me better off?
could you sympathize with my needs?
i know you think i need a lot.
i started out clean but i’m jaded.
just phonin’ it in
just breakin’ the skin



so she woke up, woke up from where she was lying still
said i gotta do something about where we’re goin’
run from the darkness in the night
sweet the sin
bitter the taste in my mouth
i see 7 towers
but i only see one way out
you gotta cry without weeping
talk without speaking
scream without raising your voice



hit the ground babe
it’s all right now
hit the ground baby
take your veil down
see your eyes in mine
leave the rest behind
hit the ground
‘cause i want to love you now.


i’ve been waiting for you
i’ve been waiting for you
never found anything else but waiting for you
i’ve been calling your name
i’ve been calling your name
never found anything else the same, nothing’s the same
you can kill a lot of time, if you really put your mind to it
or leave it all behind and never really have to go thru it
i keep hearing your name
i keep hearing your name
nothing else sounds same, as hearing your name.



i’m a liar.
it’s my secret no one knows.
i’m a liar.
yea, i know it doesn’t show.
no, i don’t miss you anymore.
no, i don’t think of you.
it’s such a game to seem adored.
no, i don’t love you anymore.



no earthly church has blessed our union.
no state has ever granted us permission
no family bond has made us two
no company has ever owned commission
no debt was paid
no dowry to gained
no treaty over borderland or power
no semblance of a world remained
to state the beauty of this nuptial hour
the secret marriage vow
is never spoken
the secret marriage can never be broken



girl you are rich even with nothing
and you know tenderness comes from pain
it’s amazing how you love
love is kind
love can give
and get no gain
it’s down a rugged road you’ve come
tho you had every reason, you didn’t come undone
somehow, you made it to the other side
you didn’t suffer in vain
you forgive those who have trespassed against you
and you know tenderness comes from pain
it’s amazing you love.



you are the most beautiful thing i’ve ever seen
you shine just like sunlight rains on a winter snow
i just had to tell you so
your eyes sparkle as the stars
like the moon that glows
your smile could light the world on fire
or did you know?
your mind is full of everything that i wanna know
i just had to let you know
i just had to tell you so
you’re my butterfly.
fly
fly
fly
fly




don’t let me down
don’t let me down
don’t let me down
don’t let me down
nobody ever loved me like she does
and if somebody loved like she do me
i’m in love for the first
don’t you know it’s gonna last
it’s a love that lasts forever
it’s a love that has no past




set myself on fire
only thing that’s in your head
don’t deny this
burning from the things you said.



i drink good coffee in the morning
comes from a place that’s far away
when i’m done, i feel like talking
without you here, there is less to say
don’t want you thinking i’m unhappy.
what is closer to the truth
that if i lived til i was 102,
i just don’t think i’ll ever get over you.
no longer drink to drink strong whiskey
i shook the hand of Time and i knew that
if i lived til i could no longer climb my stairs,
i just don’t think i’ll ever get over you.
your face it dances and it haunts me
your laughter is still ringing in my ears
i still find pieces of your presence here even, even after all these years
don’t want you thinking that i don’t get asked out to dinner
‘cause i’m here to say that i sometimes do