bed weather

has been a useful exercise to re-read all the entries from this blog.
as i read, i flashback to the places i’ve written about.
where i was physically, emotionally.
what it smelled like.
what i ate that day.
even what i was wearing.

bed weather continues here.
no blue sky for 4 days.
ventured out this morning to fetch water and went to the palengke.
p200 later, i have enough food to last me until i go the states on tuesday.

and, YAHOOEY!
i’m going to the states on tuesday!
i’m honestly so looking forward to it.
it’s an odd feeling.
i’m actually giddy.
will be landing in sfo, instead of the usual vegas.
i’m paying for this ticket myself.
my parents didn’t get it for me.
my Center didn’t get it for me.
Me.
that feels good, too.